There is a longing for something unattainable
NAd there is a laughing that comes
From somewhere up above...

No, I couldn't turn it down
She tried but I don't and she goes
I tried, but I know that she won't

It was hard for me to follow
I couldn't turn it down

Gratuitous, I know it is, but I can't!
I've made a list with intentions to destroy myself
And I will, when I've killed what I
Have drank up from the till
For the last time
Love you

What you gonna say when there's nothing to break?
If you got to take a moment, then the feeling was fake
If you're hopeful for some closure when the door's in your face
That's only a taste. Better to waste
Than fade away, so...

I've been fading away some
I'm fading away

I'm tired, can't go on
Let me go, I'm ready
To go

I'm ready

Open and honest, I'm honestly a liar
Feeling atomic, my fingers perspire
There's really no logic outside of the fire
Burned all my flesh 'til I sank in the mire
Now there's nothing left to write about
I'm tired

Open and honest, I'm honestly a liar
Feeling catatonic. Gin and tonic with
Chlorine in the water. Wash me off
Wash me off
Watch me