The sky looking blue guess that describes how I′m feeling
Thought I'd be at the top but I′m still staring at the ceiling
Been through a lot but I guess that I'm still healing
I know I'll feel better when the money starts to reel in
But until it does I′ll do these drugs to get numb
Forget who I was but have fun I′m still young
Dealing with my problems that I can't overcome
I′ll probably be this way until the day that I'm done
Unless I get better, but I don′t think that will happen
I'll be gone forever if I keep repeating my actions
But I can′t stop I just keep feeding my habits
One day I'm a drop and the results will be tragic
But I try not to think about how soon that might be
I like speed, do nine beans, a whole week, no nights sleep
The lights beam, entice me, my thoughts move at high speed
Don't try me, you might bleed, you can′t see, what I see
My dreams been dying, just like the rest of me
I′m slowly killing myself, thanks to this ecstasy
I don't give a shit, if it gets the best of me
Death′s all that's promised so I guess that it′s my destiny