Regret is a staple in my cabinet of vices
Always ready and able to give my habits a nice lift
Forgetting the days I had to trade all my nice shit
In for empty promises
I went from righteous right to lifeless
Spared them excuses
Broke every trust I ever conjured up
Conned them out of squandered love
Bombed the truss that bonded blood
Palms are dripping wet
My honor sticky from the sweat
My honesty is an anomaly
A trinket that they said I never said

I never said that I was coming hope after midnight
I'm on a roller coaster and this could be the big ride
I woke up on the wrong side of the bed so I sit tight
In corners darker than any abyss
I'm a sick guy
I'm breaking down
I'm breaking out
This vacant house
Embrace the bouts
Looked in one too many mirrors
Now my face is shaking out
Eyes are dilated
Annihilate any chance
Of pirouetting with construction
So destruction's how I dance

I'm slowly killing myself
I'm dying inside and I don't know nothing else

I'm dying inside the wire is live
The fire burns another ember as the sky is turning on its side
I can't tell if the grey is a reflection of my state of mind
This hell is a residence you can stay a while while you're alive
This OCD has grossly broken everything that's close to me
My hopes and dreams lay shattered
All that matters are these odes I scream
The page of names I've schemed reads like a laundry list of groceries
I'm raging in between devices with a range of potencies

I never said that I was heaven sent but I'm hell bound
I'm running with the devil love the smell of these spells now
The course I charted goes in one direction it fell down
Below any depravity behaved in a cell wow
The expectations placed upon myself
Accelerate the aging process of elimination
Propagate the box I'm placed in
Props and stages held to standards
Higher than intoxication
Abuse the substance drug of choice
Nod the abomination

I'm slowly killing myself
I'm dying inside and I don't know nothing else

Activate self destruct mode
When you're living to die the pain inside lives a life all its own
When you're living to die the pain inside won't leave you alone

I'm slowly killing myself
I'm dying inside and I don't know nothing else

I don't need no twelve steps to walk a mile in my shoes
Life's a dream about death that's the style that I choose
I don't need no intervention the fiend for my descension
So let a mother fucker try to get in my way

Killing myself slowly killing myself