And last December, I contemplated death every week
And I can see it so clear
Building my dream house from the ground up, it's so near
And I can see it so clear
Building my dream house from the ground up, it's so near

I've had a lot to think about during this time
Entered every single crevice of my mind
Couldn't imagine what I'd find
Had to face demons that I tried to hide away from
The more that you run, the bigger that they become
Self-hatred was a byproduct of the constant self-reflection
And the endless introspection was a void I shouldn't have stepped in
Too much time inside these walls and those within it
Had to step back, and give myself a minute
I had to create my own space so bad
And I had to grow up way too fast
I came face-to-face with facts
Thinking bout my dad more often
Visions of that coffin, exhausting
It's a lot of people I ain't seen a while
It's a lot of times I kept faking a smile

And last December, I contemplated death every week
And I can see it so clear
Building my dream house from the ground up, it's so near
And I can see it so clear
Building my dream house from the ground up, it's so near