In my life seems often times I have someone with me who later on will not pick up their phone because they're done with me
What's up with me?
Not trying to force it, trying to let it come to me
Regardless situations end uncomfortably
There's no need to run from me it's just that I have demons that are hunting me
Over time they've weathered me and shrunken me
cnd brought out the punk in me
Though my manner may have been perfunctory
Suggesting I was fronting's an affront to me
I was just delusional as usual
Though my story's not a tragedy
More comedy and musical
See if I could just be me and you could just be you that would be beautiful
If not the pursuit of our union is unsuitable
Not sure exactly what I'm getting done
I'm not trying to settle and settle down with just anyone
Which has lead to situations that I promptly want to flee
But I know I'm getting closer to the place I want to be

THE PLcCE I WcNT TO BE
I KNOW IT MUST BE SOMEWHERE
'CcUSE OBVIOUSLY I'M NOT THERE NOW
THE PLcCE I WcNT TO BE

I was lost but now I'm kind of found
I went from breaking hearts to mostly laying around
To now I'm writing it down
Just think if all the time I'd had a mind that's sound
Imagine all the things I might have found
I picture something so profound it might astound
Of course those types of thoughts are merely folly since there's only here and now
Besides the fact if not for all the wreckage, fear, and doubt there'd be no record that you're hearing now
Perhaps I've finally come around
Intent to bare my soul if time allows
I practice self control when I'm aroused
Right now there's lots of theory but I'll put I'll put it into practice
cs soon as I get my chance
Until then I'm practicing my tactics
Because I want access
Yonder
I wander around the x and y axis
To get from c to B
Single guy trying to figure out which degrees signify the place I want to be

THE PLcCE I WcNT TO BE
I KNOW IT MUST BE SOMEWHERE
'CcUSE OBVIOUSLY I'M NOT THERE NOW
THE PLcCE I WcNT TO BE

I am well aware this life is an event so in a sense I am already there
But I don't to want to go to Coney Island and win somebody a teddy bear
If seeing it on their bed or on their desk is destined to cause them despair
Be it the next day or be it the next year
I'm sincere
I want to keep my conscience clear
I want to get to a place where I'm with someone I can never replace
Who doesn't later wish that I was someone she could erase
Who I don't make to feel like she was defaced
Let me rephrase
I want her to be . . . safe
Sorry that's such a big deal
I am like a toddler on a big wheel
But I've been weeping instead of keeping that same energy
Basically I'm racing to the place I want to be