Hi darling
Just thought I'd let you know how I'm doing
It's cold out here and It's getting quite dark
But being out here in this mental physical torture
Has really made me realize how much I love you
I can't wait to see you and
Our beautiful children again
Please say hello to them for daddy
I will live to see you again
I promise my dear
I was once a boy who cared for his life
And now nothing can feel right
In my arms and legs there is only pain
But I will fight just to see you again
Into Battle we go trying not to die
Hoping one day that God will save my life
If there is a chance I'll fight to survive
I want to hold you once more in my time
No goodbyes
I really want a way out of this Hell
Never been so desperate to prevail
I really need to run away from this pain
Never been so desperate to see you again
(shaa)
So she has left
Taken my heart
My future our future
That we were supposed to have
My purpose to live
My kids just stripped from me
I can't get that back
Therefore I have no reason to survive
No reason to escape from this Hell
So this is goodbye
To anyone who is reading
This I am no longer here
No longer roaming this pathetic land
Called earth
I've had a good life
But too much pain to call it a good end
Only agony festers
That can be solved with this goodbye
Darling
One day we'll meet again
And I hope your end
Is more painful than mine has
Into Battle we go hoping one day I will die
Maybe one day God will take away my life
There is nothing left here so what is the point?
Even if I win I'll live to disappoint you all