Wonderin' just where I've been, I'm losin'
Parts of me, I can't get back, can't choose them
Prayin' for another way through this
Hell I've been escaping through the music
To be afraid, I always am
I miss the stage, and I miss all of my friends

Still here, sun ready sun steady
No fear
A headache no bedding
What's real and what's not
My stomach in knots
Felt reality, Sink in and stay
Hopin' that my memory remains

Thinkin' bout the facts of life and Jesus
Wonderin' if he's gonna see me through
Findin' all the ways I fucked my life up
Until I understand that this whole life's rough

To shine like gold,
I wish I could
Stop feelin' old, leave the past and do some good
Still here, sun ready sun steady
No fear
A headache no bedding
What's real and what's not
My stomach in knots
Felt reality, Sink in and stay
Hopin' that my memory remains

Do you think about me?
When the parties over
I think about you and cry,
I'm getting older
It's hard to talk with these tears inside my eyes
Cold and locked, I think about it all the time
Alive, I'm ready, sun's steady
No lies I'm Fienen'
Believin', there's more to this life
Felt the strife, laid it down
Insane
Hopin' that my memory remains