I don’t even know
How to find the words
To start this conversation
Planning what to say
I can’t help myself
Predicting our destination
Either I will end up
Saying nevermind
And tending to your ego
Or I say what I need
Try to stand my ground
While you’re letting me know

I’m the only one in this family
Stirring trouble
Why can’t I just take the high road?
I should bite my tongue, it’s only
A little difference
Of belief, so let it go

Wish I could convey
Just how deep it cuts
When you say that you know
Better than I do
About the body
I’ve been living in, it’s almost
Enough to make me walk
Out of here and
Never want to come back
Cause if I can’t be known
Or trusted by you
I can find what I lack

Out there, chosen family
Waiting to embrace me
There are folks who know just how I feel
You’ve had every chance to
Listen, but I’m about to
Take this trauma somewhere it can heal

And one day when the wounds
Have healed enough to hold
Both hope and anger in their rightful place
Maybe we’ll get one more
Chance to prove that our
Relationship wasn’t all a waste

And one day when the wounds
Have healed enough to hold
Both hope and anger in their rightful place
Maybe we’ll get one more
Chance to prove that our
Relationship wasn’t all a waste

I don’t know how to tell if you’re happy
But I hope that you can hear me laughing
The world was hard but it still held me
And I pray for at least one day when you felt free

I don’t even know how to find the words