Tears in my mother's eyes
Prevent my thoughts of suicide
But demons in my head are talking
They're plotting my homicide
Something that still haunts my every sleepless night
I try to internalize it
And put up my best fight
But it still creeps up on me when I'm alone
I'm frantic and lonely
Scrolling through the contacts on my cellphone
I think that writing might help
I feel a little more like myself
But once I put that shit on paper
Then I put it back into my shelf
Perhaps it's time to be a little more honest
I may need some help

Now no liquor, no blowjob, no meds
Can ease this pain
No smoke, no money
And fuck cocaine
I've been on a mission for a while now to find myself
I never stopped to consider my own mental health
No holiday trip out to America
No laid back puffing on the indica
No cold beers on the couch
Chilling with the crew
Because your happiness and strength
Needs to come from within you
It's hard to find that strength
When my vision is so hazy
I try to think forward
To how better my days can be
And once I take a few steps back
And I get into the rhythm
I stop talking for a second
And I just listen to myself
Dude, you're sounding like you're crazy
Don't think of taking your life
You'll tear apart your family and your friends
Who's gonna be there to listen to their shit
You're the glue that keeps them all together
And you know it
Now stop thinking like that
And get your shit together
It's no use dwelling in the miserable weather
So pick yourself up
And be the best version of you
And remember we got shit to do