You take me for a joke, I think I've been thinking elaborately
From crawling on my knees to high school complete I've been ripping like Jack in a dark alley
I sting like a bee, can't be no Ali I don't float, you can only get a punch from me
Like double meaning and beating a punch from Me
Remember everything you said I couldn't be
It's been a lot for a while, bet I'll never recover But it don't matter cause I'll already
Be repping the blessing that I've been given I remember everybody insulted
Man and I was having the best time when they told me I'm awesome And why would I change it when I'm
In the game that's needing me heinous
Enough with the faking, pretending you can play how I play it
Living in a pandemic, but I would start epidemics With evil intention from rapping, they ain't
Know where my head is
I'm thinking about it, honestly I'm happy they doubted
For a minute, pride can get you pretty far
More than power
Just give it an hour, realize you won't fall
To a coward
And give it everything you got, being tired
Don't matter
Just think about it, if the work you wanna put in was easy, it wouldn't be working
Even when you follow the dreaming, if you wanna
Be famous, then you gotta get up and take it
And cut out the waiting and push your life
To be dedicated
And I get lost, feel little like the sky's falling
When I get on the record, I spike
quality I'm much different when the mic is off of me
Not good with words, sound funny, but it's honesty I really only ever used them when
Defending me
Grew up as a kid with a fire in me
Eventually told them all to get off of me Now I can show em all
Yeah, and if I die the best, can I get this off my chest
Can I get rid of the things that have been giving me the stress
Yeah, if I die the best, can I not be such a mess
Can I at least have an hour where I Never second guess
Yeah, if I die
Ain't got a lot of practice with holding my head up But even then I can admit it to
Yourself when I'm better
The way I spit we get you thinking that I
Made up these letters
But you get mad at what I say, now you
Coming to end it
You got a vendetta, don't know where you been thinking I'm headed
If I was worried about the top then I would already be there
But I will not sweat it, I got a lot of time on my hands
And I'ma make sure it's used to do the best that I can
Ain't nobody working like I work Y'all are nothing appetizers maybe but you
couldn't get me to dessert
Put your worth down, trade it for a shirt
Couldn't buy a skill like mine by offering the earth
Take it from better to worse, analyze every word
Say you're the best, are you sure
Put it against all my work You couldn't step in the dirt
That I've been living under Cool how reality works
Changes a lot when you're hurt I didn't play if you're first
Sink in your soul like a curse You don't understand the hunger I got, you
Only got thirst I can see all of them perk
Up when I get on my verse This is the lane that I merge
In now I start to rehearse Take it again and again
Post and get rid of it and Do it again till I can't
Breathe and I'm begging for air Fight with the heart of a champ
Your skill is where I set camp I got a lot on my hands
I got a lot on my hands
If I die the best, can I get this off my chest
Can I get rid of the things that have been giving me the stress
Yeah If I die the best, can I not be such a mess
Can I at least have an hour where I never second guess
Yeah If I die
I just wanna be the best at everything I wanna do
I don't wanna be forgotten with the rest of the world
I know how it sounds shallow but that ain't what I mean
I just wanna bring change and some positivity
To anyone that feels like me
Low to a point where they cannot breathe
Suffocating on all the misery that they feel
When they feel on the edge of things
Ruining their life cause they cannot see
Any light at the end of their dark journey
I get it, no place feels like home
So on the day I go
Yeah If I die the best, can I get this off my chest
Can I get rid of the things that have been giving me the stress
Yeah If I die the best, can I not be such a mess
Can I at least have an hour where I never second guess
When they put me in the ground
Will the pain that sticks around
Disappear and leave me giving me the peace I never found
Yeah I know I'll die one day
To be honest I'm afraid
If I go when I'm happy finally then I'll be okay
Yeah If I die