Gotta clear my mind, I know it takes time
But I've been on my grind, don't know if I'm fine
I just gotta find, the reason for my life
Remember all those nights when I would just cry
Remember the sigh when he said D died
You better choose a side, hold it down like a tie
I remember how you lied, now I'm takin' mine
Yeah, oh, now I'm takin' mine

Yeah, yeah, I'm takin' my time, gotta do it right
Say this isn't realistic, might as well try
I was pinchin' pennies, bitch, I don't need a dime
May 2021, thought of suicide
But now I climb, now it's my time, and I don't wanna die
Yeah, oh, I remember when I was shy
Comparin' myself to other guys
Never looked no one in they eyes
Woah, woah, no no
No, no, no

Gotta clear my mind, I know it takes time
But I've been on my grind, don't know if I'm fine
I just gotta find, the reason for my life
Remember all those nights when I would just cry
Remember the sigh when he said D died
You better choose a side, hold it down like a tie
I remember how you lied, now I'm takin' mine
Yeah, oh, now I'm takin' mine

E-S-T-E-S, woah
Got a lotta ghosts in my head, woah
Long nights layin' in my bed, woah
Felt better off dead, woah
Now I gotta clear my schedule
Now I gotta get off these meds, woah
Cus baby I'm a mess
When I'm depressed

Gotta clear my mind, I know it takes time
But I've been on my grind, don't know if I'm fine
I just gotta find, the reason for my life
Remember all those nights when I would just cry
Remember the sigh when he said D died