I know you think you know me, but you don’t know where i’ve been
I’m a mess, whats happiness when you just f*** it up again?
I might lose my way
I might not come back
I know you try to stay to help
But go and save yourself


This ain’t a way to be livin I get it.
Didn’t know bad it was until you actually said it
Breakin down but tellin everyone I’m fine, I know I promised I would talk before I crossed that line again but didn’t.
I guess thats just the way my head works
Open up another couple scars before you mend yours,
I dont learn from watching others crash i gotta wreck first
Cuz I dont think that love is really love until you get hurt
Yea
And i know what you think
Said its hard to love me when i dont love myself and im on the brink.
Of trading in this sobriety for a f*** drink
And I don’t wanna talk about it till we’re bout to to sink
yea
Maybe i just need a day off,
Maybe i’m just more f*** comfortable in the chaos
You say you love me so you stay on
Invested all your time and wonder when it’s gonna payoff, huh?

i know you think you know me, but you don’t know where i’ve been
I’m a mess, whats happiness when you just f*** it up again?
I might lose my way
I might not come back
I know you try to stay to help
But go and save yourself

So afraid of the failure that now i'm barely livin
Spent a lifetime of working with nothin left to give it
Lookin back at the things we been through and feel i miss it
I been running forever I don’t know how you didn’t
When you’re sitting right next to me, don’t know where i go
I’m in my head with these songs and pick apart every note
These insecurities killing me but i never show
The things i’m thinking are probably worse than you’ll ever know
yea
We been feeling like we can’t move
Same house, same walls, but a different view
Spending time avoiding this inconvenient truth
I got some problems and I’m sick of trying to blame you
Cuz i feel,
Like i been
On my own
In my head
The light goes,
And I see
You fall when standing beside me

And every night i lie awake, tryin to fight but everyday i'm feeling less
feeling less like me..
Still waiting for me to open up
She aint cheating, just fantasizing bout who i was
Fell in love with this image that i portray but know it aint a lie,
Its who i want to be at the end of the day
I know the feelings and the thoughts will keep me down
Depression & anxiety, hanging inside the clouds
No matter where i go they keep following me around
And you think that one day i can make it out

i know you think you know me, but you don’t know where i’ve been
I’m a mess, whats happiness when you just f*** it up again?
I might lose my way
I might not come back
I know you try to stay to help
But go and save yourself