When you said it
Did you think you'd mean it?
And when you left here
Did you regret it?
I say I'm doing better, but only if I lie
Or scream into my pillow late at night
I've been seeing flashes of you in my brain
Every time I breathe in air
I've been self-reflecting, writing shitty hooks
Went to a bar and I got overlooked
I'm always second-best or the worst of the worst
Yeah, it's a curse
Do you feel shame when you hear my name?
Or does a smile creep up on your face
You golden boy,
You favorite child
Picked me up and tore me right apart
I guess I should be grateful
You deemed me as your biggest prize
You golden boy,
You favorite child
I heard the Wicked get no sleep at night
Picture-perfect family hung up on your walls
You tell me you're your dad's son
A big black heart
Oil running through your veins
You're a full machine
I wish I had known that
Before you pulled the trigger on me
Do you feel shame when you hear my name?
You golden boy,
You favorite child
Picked me up and tore me right apart
I guess I should be grateful
You deemed me as your biggest prize
You golden boy,
You favorite child
I heard the Wicked get no sleep at night
But I hope you sleep at night
And I hope you dream
Dream of me
You say I "made a mistake"
and I'm the one "giving it up"
But I'm not the only girl that you buried in your backyard
Just because you didn't punch me in the gut,
Doesn't make you a good person
And I'm the only one
That'll dig herself out
Do you feel shame when you hear my name?
You golden boy,
You favorite child
Picked me up and tore me right apart
I guess I should be grateful
You deemed me as your biggest prize
You golden boy,
You least favorite child
I heard the Wicked get no sleep at night
Favorite child