I can't even tell
If this is fake or real
(Mhm)

But i just wanted
To say i'm to hard to
Deal with (with)

And i know
That i'm going blind
But i saw every sign
Of you switching up on me
(Yeah)

I get you,it's tough when
People judge your social life
Heartbreak adds to another layer
People think they know my vibe
But they can't see what's
Truly inside

I'm just waiting to melt down
To my final breath
(Huh)
And i'm just waiting to
Melt down to my last one yet
(Hm)

Yeah

God i really wish
You could help me
But i'm doing this shit
On my own and it's not healthy
(Not healthy)

I don't care about my time
I'm stuck in my head with rhymes
And i'm just sick of healing (healing)

Call me selfish (selfish)
Call me useless (useless)
I'm just tryna grow
Without hating the process

Yeah
Call me crazy (crazy)
Call me stupid (stupid)
But all i wanna do is
Grow without hating
The process

(Hating the process)

Looking in the mirror
Looking at something different (hm)
Looking at something that is
Just so unclear (yeah)

I can't see myself
In a couple years
I'm drowning in my tears
I'm hiding from my fears

I'm searching for the light
In this darkness i reside
Trying to find my way
Back to the person that i
Used to be inside

Am i who i say i am
Am i who they think
I should be, no

Cause
Everyday is the same
Everyday i'm in pain
Think i'm going insane
Think i'm going to be ok
But i'm never sure how
Everything will still be the same

Shit gets harder day by day
I'm doing all the fucked up
Shit on my own
Gotta take it day by day
They say (they say)

Is it true or is it a lie
They just wanna
Kill my vibe (my vibe)
Always hiding inside
I swear i can't be myself
Without the judgement
(Judgement)

Guess i'm just growing
On my own (yeah)
Guess i'm just
Doing all the hardships
On my own

Yes i'm lonely inside
But i guess that's how
I'll truly be forever (mhm)
I guess that's how
It'll be for a while (hm)
Yeah

Maybe one day
I'll be able to
Think back to today
And saw how great
I've changed (changed)

And maybe one day
I'll be alright , ok

God i really wish
You could help me
But i'm doing this shit
On my own and it's not healthy
(Not healthy)

I don't care about my time
I'm stuck in my head with rhymes
And i'm just sick of healing (healing)

Call me selfish (selfish)
Call me useless (useless)
I'm just tryna grow
Without hating the process

Yeah
Call me crazy (crazy)
Call me stupid (stupid)
But all i wanna do is
Grow without hating
The process

(Hating the process)

On my own
I'm on my own
I'm just tryna
Grow
On my own (own)
(Yeah,yeah,yeah)