Sick to my stomach when reading back all of our dms where did i fuck up

You were showered with love and attention girl I just dont get it i'm sittin here stuck

Drowning in feelings and reeling from all confusion of you really leaving

Now I'm burning up mad as fuck that I love you so much tell me why am I bleeding

You tell me you wrappin' this up and I'm thinkin my wounds, you talkin bout us

Tell me one thing then go do another on my mother you talk bout trust

And I get it bae trust me I get it but you just don't feel it this feeling it sucks

This feeling like missing the bus then walkin back home that shit in your gut

This feeling like gamblin all of your bucks then hearing the words straight flush

This feeling like finally opening up on ya hurt and they tell you to hush

This feeling like thinkin you takin it slow but you still gettin' told that you rush

This feeling like I'm gettin promised some shit so I wait like okay what the fuck

Downplayin like we just a fling, can't stop you i'm knowin' that much

but I know all your favorite things, made a list about all of that shit

I wanted to give you a ring, Were all the I love you's made up

I just wanted to be your king, But you shuffled the deck on my luck

Can't say that i'm innocent I saw the writing I guess that's the luck of the draw

I knew that my thinking was flawed, but you got me questioning god

Like how you gone send me a angel then take her away this shit gotta be fraud

Hell I really poured all of me into her and my heart just got put on the

Put on the cross