I guess I'm numb to it


Used to the heartbreak, guess that's the art of it,

Blame it on my childhood nah you ain't part of it, 

Everything I try to make great put me into debt, 


Every time I'm trying to vacate I'm needing a check, rain on the calendar, ain't too many people really moving at my caliber, that would be a flex just to say I'm not an amateur, but I'm used to running things don't they make me manager, when people can be savages, de-escalating problems when others prone to damaging,



Yeah I'm far from perfect but I'm worth the time so cherish it, if you don't plan to resolve you should bury it,

Life is too short and all this pain I can't carry it, maybe God a take me to the heavens on a Chariot, on this underground railroad I've been Harriet, parted ways with my own Judas Iscariot, the pain that Christ felt I imagine was the scariest, he had to Bear it like a clothesline or a lariat, 


Guess he understands better than me being an American, culture lost its heritage, it's full of all these heretics, shoot my shot don't plan to Miss I'm making it even if I brick, 


Even if I hit harder, it won't be a trick,... even though I got my guard up I'm a  nemesis, 



To everybody envying my silhouette, they feeling I'm still a threat, I'm feeling my intellect, growing everyday while so many just can't connect, like they trying to call collect, from a phone booth that keeps giving quarters back, 


Life is out of order and I really don't want no part of that, got to pass history really ain't too proud of that, but I learned a lot of things like how to get a dollar back, how to deal with people that truly don't know how to act, how to deal with people that's hating on you just cuz you're black.