Shaking hands I dialed the number
Heard it ring
And heard "hello"
We caught up for a moment
I Caught my breath
And I let it go
He said:
"Why now after all these years?
Why come out about this today?
Why write songs for this as your therapy
When there's so many other ways?"
I fell back into my default of feeling stupid
hearing my voice out loud
Do I owe him an explanation?
Was I alone?
Was I allowed?
He said: "shhh…
Are you sure you wanna do this?
Consequences on your shoulders…
Just remember
If you dance with the bear
Its up to the bear
when the dance is over"
I asked:
Remember when I came to your office
So long ago
Fresh from those words and wounds and shame
Fresh secrets from the road
He said:
"Are you sure you're not confused
With someone else?
It just sounds off.
In all honesty
I don't recall having that kind of talk".
I said:
Hang on, you don't remember
That meeting where I cried you listened,
You closed the door behind me
Told me I was in what they call a golden position?
Click went the phone
The line went dead
I guess I'm stronger than I thought I was
Cause I called back again ….
Hello? Yeah, we must've been cut off
So that doesn't ring a bell?
He said "truly no it doesn't.
Maybe someone else can help..
Shhh you don't know what you're getting into…  
keep it quiet keep your composure
remember when you dance with the bear
Its up to the bear when the dance is over
Ya know,
I'd rather sleep at night
Walk lighter
be free
Than live to settle all the scores
That were actually never ever up to me…
…besides…
Since the money and the power
Protect this thriving culture  
Remember when you dance with the bear
Its up to the bear when the dance is over…