I met the man of my dreams and i wanna have his babies
as if anything could save me or anything could help us at all
haven't written all through the pandemic and i'm feeling pathetic
cuz i had all the time in the world to be creative
and show off what i'm made of but i just sat around in a daze
and it's amazing cuz i don't wanna say it
yea i don't wanna say it

hate it
lazy
wasted mind set coming on
and i hate it when i'm fading

i had been feeling afraid
i had been experiencing body pains watching my friends fail or fade
getting sick or even succeed
weighing out my whiteness and my womanhood
times that i spent feeling good versus how i am doing now
i guess there's no better way to sell it 'cept maybe i am selfish
at least i got my best friends and i

hate it/hate is
lazy
wasted mind set coming on
and i hate it when im fading

but i sing about violence while you sing about porch swings
bringing home more than me to keep it boring
you're boring

hate is lazy
wasted mindset coming on

i wanna be motivated i wanna be motivated i wanna be motivated
i wanna be