What if i tell you everything about me and there's nothing left to share
So i'll make some shit up even though you'll be completely aware
Never been the type to be content in a middle ground
So i'll create some reasons why id rather you just not be around
Sometimes i think it would be better if we just had never even met
Cause then i wouldn't be awake at 2 thinking about what i said
And i'll admit that i can fake a smile while my thoguhts are running free
I guess that means you'll never get to meet the best of me
You'll be mine for the weekend you'll be mine till sunday but if it rains
You'll be asking where i've been i'll be out with my school friends maybe some day
Ill wake up and be able a little more stable ask you to stay
Nuture what's fatal set your place at the table
Won't be today sorry to say
I'm just a castaway
Don't think my complicated calculated choice of words go unseen
But i don't think i'll ever really tell you what they actually mean
Hard cause im always wishing always thinking that i didn't think at all
Maybe it's cause ive always been a little scared of the flight before the fall
So good at avoiding the dreaded flight before the fallm
Never looked you in the eye cause i can't lie to your face
Our effervescent love is drowning to the bottom of the lake
Lost a year of my life telling myself that it's you
Not trying to break your heart so the only thing left to do
I wanna run till no one knows my past or knows my name
Set my childhood on fire till youre burning in flames
Don't want to think about who's watching or who's listening to me
Cause i'm convinced that would change what i turn out to be
You'll be mine for the weekend you'll be mine till sunday
You'll be asking where i've been ill be waiting for when someday
I'll wake up and be a able be a little more stable please stay
I know it's ungrateful no space at the table
Hurts to say
Don't want it this way
Ended up on this bay
Like a castaway