Roll up, roll up

This fate is harrowing
The thoughts won't let me sleep
And I cannot hide
The circus inside of my mind

I feel disgusting
I should really clean up my act
Direction is lost
I'll show you my flaws
And then there is no going back

I am too far gone everything is wrong
The tight rope of apathy I balance on
I'm jumping through rings
But I don't feel anything
Trapeze swings but I can't let go, I can't let go

Your smoke, your mirrors and misdirection
Contorted reflection will change your perception
I'm in the shadows these internal battles
Are taking their toll when nothing else matters
Distorted self image is something you live with
Bound by the worth that someone else gives it

I'm too contorted to escape
I may bend but I won't break
A twisted truth that still remains
I will stay

Every option seems the same
Chained in this cage every day
Every struggle is in vain
I will stay

I, I just can't mask the urge anymore

This fate is harrowing
The thoughts won't let me sleep
And I cannot hide
Illusions constrict my mind
I feel disgusted
At how I've ended up
All sense is lost, I show you my flaws
But I'm never giving up

I'm too contorted to escape
I may bend but I won't break
A twisted truth that still remains
I will stay

Every option seems the same
Chained in this cage every day
Every struggle is in vain
I will stay

Contort me
Constrain me
And I will never be free
Encage me
Enrage me
Until you engage me

Craving applause
I just can't mask the urge anymore

Where's the applause?
I just can't mask the urge anymore