Everyone only sees this monster, but not what I feel
Tell me, would you still be with me if you saw what I would become?
I become a monster for everyone I love
Because I still feel something, for fear of losing you

Today I see it very clearly, that everything was planned for me from the beginning
The days with fuck-ups, then awake at night, having the pen in my hand
I write what makes me sick, because I have nothing in the bank
Desperately trying to get my head out of the noose
What then, if even worse things happen?
Your uncle with the shotgun at his temple makes an exit from his life
Damn, man
What remains of him when it escalates like this?
Then they only call you at night and tell you briefly
That there was a man without regard for him
Or that you love him, they scrape him off the wall
And you have a lot of hate for everything and everyone in life
When they only take instead of give
Everyone understands when they see this misery
That breaking these rules was normal for me

And where should I look for my friends here?
And what will become of me when dreams bleed?

Everyone only sees this monster, but not what I feel
Tell me, would you still be with me if you saw what I would become?
I become a monster for everyone I love
Because I still feel something, for fear of losing you
I become a monster
I become a monster

It's always the same because of crooked things
Your brother goes back behind bars
The taste is bitter when you're sure
That you don't have life under control even for a day
It always gets worse when you know
Fate is an unpredictable little bastard
You're alone in the room because no one wants to take care of you
It tears you apart inside because you're not lucky
Because everything is in ruins that you wish for the children
And your dad was never there and your stepdad is yelling again
When you don't want to find his vodka
And he's not getting any younger, so he's never sober
Only hates what concerns you because he's dead inside and always freaks out
As soon as a light comes on and therefore almost beats you disabled

And where should I look for my friends here?
And what will become of me when dreams bleed?

Everyone only sees this monster, but not what I feel
Tell me, would you still be with me if you saw what I would become?
I become a monster for everyone I love
Because I still feel something, for fear of losing you
I become a monster
I become a monster

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