In truth it's not that simple, it's not words that will save me
I can't repair all the debris, I could say everything but it's stupid
I always struggle to fit in, always struggle to close my eyes
I need to stop lying, blaming the whole world
Every day I live in a movie where each scene ends in tears
I may act like I don't care but deep down I'm scared
I may travel the world but I'll never understand my heart
I don't know if I like when time stops, I don't know if I like death so much
I didn't want to make my parents cry, I wanted to save them I didn't have one
I lost my strength, I hid my face
I broke the doors but I lost my base
I dodged my wrongs while doing wrongs
And it's different the day everything crashes
We forget in the booze, we drink without stopping
It wakes up when we see that we age in tears
I laid down my weapons hoping they would listen to me
Doubts and fears it's the day of your death they will throw you flowers
Yeah, I know you're better off without me but I want to negotiate
I know you're living death but I'm living it too

I don't listen to what they're saying
I'm moving straight into a black hole
I've changed too much for you I think that's what's hurting me
Doubts, fears that strike me down
The drops that stick to the cheeks in the evening
Only pain that eats me I have a dirty heart
Tell me your sorrows, I'm filled with hatred
You ask me if I cry, I couldn't tell you I'm scared

I'm much better in the dark than their fake smiles
I want to freeze my past, burn the memories
I succeeded in my life but I messed up everything
And I'm chasing after myself but I'm learning nothing
If everything is linked I'm made for nothing
I tell stories I don't know the end
I just wanted to believe when I had nothing
I just wanted to believe when I had nothing
And it's true that I can't sleep
Thoughts have knocked me out
Too often I've looked for the sun
I spent time hanging around
Reflecting on my mistakes
Trying to move forward anyway
Even with wounds on the heart

I don't listen to what they're saying
I'm moving straight into a black hole
I've changed too much for you I think that's what's hurting me
Doubts, fears that strike me down
The drops that stick to the cheeks in the evening
Only pain that eats me I have a dirty heart
Tell me your sorrows, I'm filled with hatred
You ask me if I cry, I couldn't tell you I'm scared

And it's true that I can't sleep, thoughts have knocked me out
Too often I've looked for the sun, I spent time hanging around
Reflecting on my mistakes, trying to move forward anyway
Even with wounds on the heart

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