My life is a mess
I don't understand myself but I understand people well
Why am I too nice when I act mean, yeah
I'm depressed, I drink, I smoke and I lose weight
Mom worries about me and I worry about her
I couldn't bear to kiss her in front of my friends
Today for her I could kill all my friends
Because they're bitches

They let me down, I found myself alone facing depression
Talking to myself like a broadcast
My hatred fills the entire hemisphere
Don't listen to them, they're no good
Listen to your heart, listen to your mother and leave the shit
Doubts are scary, I see dad fighting cancer
I wish he could come to my concerts and be proud
I write a text and talk about myself like a narcissist
But I try to attract people who think

A crooked smile, a sideways glance, a knife that's been planted
A child who dies
A child who dies
A crooked smile, a sideways glance, a knife that's been planted
A child who dies
A child who dies

Hey, I have a lot on my mind, I think about quitting rap but
I'm a true poet caught by evil
The beast is here, but not the beauty
Alcohol, a mirror and I'm sorry
I feel different from people so I isolate myself
I learned to fly without taking my flight
I screamed non-stop, no one heard me
Everyone saw me but no one was waiting for me
And it's really hard to see everything in black
I often smile but I'm depressed eh
I'm nervous and I blame myself
You talk about me, you don't even know what I'm worth
And tell me, do you know my life?
I've deleted all my flaws and hit rock bottom
You don't like me, I'm delighted
I'd like to rekindle the flame and I'm tired, I'm lazy
But I don't give a damn about fame
In my head it's a mess
And it seems like I'm zen
My texts are shapes
I want the view on the sand and the sea
Now I have my eyes on the shit
And my father in a hospital bed so of course I'm depressed
Happiness calls me and I decline
If she sleeps with me on the first night, I leave
I did good in the bad and now I'm running
I've been hit hard like oil
I found the flaws, drowned in alcohol
And when you talked about me I saw it but I pretended not to
Silence is golden but silence is thin
A heart of gold, a true word
Not durable for dogs, thank you for being there, I need it
I disappointed loved ones for money in my pocket, damn

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