I think I no longer have the strength
Yet I've spent years, years trying to forget
I feel like my life is getting darker, I see myself falling into all kinds of drugs
I don't know if I'm crazy but I love pain, I love when it's on someone else
My heart is so black, I no longer feel its beat but why am I not dead?
Why am I not dead after so much pain?
I want to see light not a pile of dollars
To be able to get out of here without huge scars
I ponder over too trivial situations
Again tonight I'm shooting up like it's New Year's Eve
I don't give a damn anymore, you can say I'm lying
I could say I'm hurting but no one will listen to me like a man without tales
I've gone downhill alone, I lose myself especially
When I notice that death is giving me too many signs
I leave my house with my headphones on, music blaring
I try to save all my roots
I've messed up enough in love, in death
I repeat myself, I shed sparkling tears
I love my family so much, why destroy them so much?
It's not me who's acting, I'm losing my appetite

I wake up in the dark, I'm cold, shivers taking me away
The evil that comes to break down my door, I only fight for my loss
I don't want you to hate me if I leave
I just wanted color in my heart
Tell me you understand? Tell me you understand?
If I tell you I don't love anything anymore
I broke the current, I open my eyes, I can't see anything
I packed the brown, the smoke encourages me
Wasted my money on a fake entourage
Locked in the apartment, I smoke the hit there
I think back to old memories that hurt me a lot
Time stops in bad moments
Paranoid, I push away all my love
I no longer trust you, I don't even trust myself
I walk alone in the rain, tears falling to the ground
People unhappy in their lives, how to go back in time?
Try to change the way of living
A painful awakening, dollars in the pocket
You won't buy my loved ones, there's too much value for that
I see the devil in pursuit, I see the devil in person
Apart from black and white, no color excites me
I don't even want to save myself, just my brothers and sisters
It's the basis of my rage otherwise I'd already be dead
Mom tells me to stop squinting
I see my case getting worse but well, I'm getting by
Damn but why? Why do I repeat myself?
Why did you haunt my head every night?
I'm just waiting for your call, ready to do anything for you
But fight as much, push away the gray and bring back your beautiful complexion
I've messed up enough for a damn adult
Unstable and unloved, anxious about the past
Will prevent me from saving myself
Music healed me, I've already given too much
Ah, damn Klem

VIEW ORIGINAL LYRICS