Hypnotize
Yeah I'm dirty, crawled out from the Mud
Keep that bitch up in my phone, but She is not my slut
I feel like DJ Khalid, she just another One
Yeah they want me now, now I'm Getting paid
But when I was broke and fucked up, I wasn't getting laid
I was getting scolded by Motherfuckers everyday
Gotta change my ways
Got myself sober, I really hope it Stays
I still ain't fucking happy, but I'm Alive today
I pray that all my homies make it out
I pray that my momma don't gotta See me in a fucking gown
I pray that I never have to see my girl Frown
I pray that I make my dad proud
Never had a shoulder to lean
Well that's what it seem
Was never safe inside my home, my Biggest fucking dream
Is to have a place to call my home And never have to leave
Never wake up just to scream
All these nightmares in my sleep
Suffering PTSD
From the trauma as a kid and the Trauma as a teen
When Covid hit, my daily routine
Wake up late at 12
Eat a meal for 12
Play the game for bout 12 hours
Yeah I wasn't well
Locked in my body, inescapable hell
I'm living just to dwell
I'm living in a hell
I'm living just to dwell
I'm living in a hell
I'm stuck and I can't get up
Bitch I can't even look up
Homi on my mind mind
I should fucking die die
All my homies switched up, they all Stabbed me in the spine spine
Screaming to the lord as if he Actually exists
I'm yelling "can you help me?, im Stuck in a pit"
I been dealing with a lot, so I should Slash my wrist
It's my only escape, I can't see clear Through the mist
I've been pissed on and beaten down
Which way should I choose?
Left or right? Up or down?
Mound of mound of pain on my chest
I'm screaming "fuck the world and Everything thats next"
Anger filled to manifest
It's not just a bad day, it's a shitty Life
God wants to wait, but I'm ready to Fucking die
I know it's all bad
It's all coming down to something I Ain't wanna have
So don't call my phone
Please just hang up when you hear That motherfucking tone
Glass bones
I'm really fucking fragile, you can Break me easily
I'm so alone