(Your not in Control anymore)
(Yeah)
(I've been done)
(Ok)
(Done)
(Yeah, yeah)
Dealing with depression, death is your perspective
Put it on y'all, don't let it get the message
Youth don't play about their blessings
I was Dealing with a lot, i don't play it cool
(Cool)
I been tryna play it through the pain
Y'all don't understand my truth, (Truth)
Jesus tryna get me through the-
(Through the-)
(February)
Back then i was dealing with some stuff
Back then Man, i really had enough
Back then i was trouble with the schools, i was always tryna play it cool
When i was Ten, i was dealing with a lot
Had a feeling, couldn't even shake it off
It was something with my mental, now it's time to get the pencil
Had to write was I feeling, never thought i was alone but i was
It was only ever me in that cut, scars on my face
Had to wipe my own blood
Had to wipe my own blood
Had to wipe my own blood
But Jesus was there
Dealing with the pressure, depth is your perspective
Put it on gang, don't let it get the message
Youth don't play about their blessings
I was Dealing with a lot, i don't play it cool
(Cool)
I been tryna play it through the pain
Y'all don't understand my truth, (Truth)
Jesus tryna get me through the rain, (Yeah)
When I was younger, I wanted to blaze the mic
Make it big, by my momma house
That was tight, had dreams and visions but they slowly faded
Possessive to make it, Yeah my soul I traded
Everyone that love me, I pushed away
Wouldn't even go home until the 13th day
Momma said "You preacher you can't run no more!"
Tried running, Yo
But they shut that door, was like-
I don't wanna deal with it no more
I don't wanna deal with the closed doors
I don't wanna deal with it no more, I don't want to-
I don't wanna deal
I'm just tryna-
I'm just tryna deal, (Yeah)
(Dealing with it)
Since when has program dealt with a child?
(With a child)
Got plenty, they been through it
Got trials, maybe you can try and outlast them?
Maybe you can blame it on religion?
But in the end it's the beauty of it, a beautiful product of a beauty living system
Sista, how in the world I'm gonna get through the system?
Triple six up in my system, (It's not of you)
Triple seven in my holy place, (Fond of you)
Looking for Control over my time to view
Holy cues, timing's impeccable of a hundred different angles
Had the sequence of a movie on the table
So sit down bruh, I'm been tryna give out some
(Some)
Maybe you can give me back, (Back)
Some attention I lack, (Lack)