I cant stand myself
My reflection
I dont slit my wrist for attention
I never thought id shoot all this heroin
Fuck I fly from injecting
Cash a quick check show some ass for attention
All this cash that im spending
Goes straight from my pocket to the pills im ingesting
I struggle with my image cus im anxious
I woke up with some blood on my sheets
Thought I'd finally be free
My father he weeps
My brother he sleeps
I said "father do you recognise me"
He looked right through me
Stare over horizon the ocean the sea
A butterfly freed from coccoon make believe
If only youd listen to me
I'd tell you my problems but they don't believe
They see me beneath their feet
Not a treasure to keep
I shine like the eyes of a newborn star
But im never getting far
At least
I know my worth as a human being
But I never lock down that worth
Cus you see
My mother could be
Dissapointed in me
I drink hennessy
Get a chance to breathe
I dont want your pity I just wanna be free
Collecting my mind like a puzzle by piece
I break my thoughts down like a bed by the sea
I feel for the kids that feel things just like me
I pray that my mind could be studied so please
Just let me be me
I feel sick and alone
Stop calling my phone
My momma my father they wanna dispose
Of my body my powder
My pills give me power
Im overdosing fall asleep in the shower
I wake up ontop of a hospital stretcher
My hospital bed
Feel my brain in effect
Im better off dead
Feel my emotions I put the pad to the pen
Hope you never really loved me
Im sorry
I did this again
Leave a message for family lovers and friends
Discharged from the hospital at 5 past 10
But my stomach feeling empty so I shoot up instead
Brain rots till the end
I walk earth with the endless sense of dread
Im glad im far from my friends
Cus I never know if ill see them again
I got everything sleeping airmattress no bed
Or a couple nights ill switch to the couch instead
Overdose its better for free willed