Searching
Through the vision
I'm dreaming
In mental spinning
I'm reflecting in the mirror
Expecting to see
A winning
I been sinning
So I pray for
Forgiveness
For self and kin
And all the time
I gotta pray
In no matter
Of how I'm winning
Searching through the
Valley of darkness
Inside my soul
And know the devils Working hard
To be keeping me
From my goal
My life is moving fast
And I'm trying to take it Slow
But everyday is like a marathon
Making it as I go
Lately I been feeling
Like I'm
Out of
My body
And that this earth
Is just a plain
For all our
Pain and our
Sobbing
I got these scars
Inside my soul
Internally
In the stopping
Of all the peace
I gotta see
Its cuz
The vision is cloudy
I'm developing
And finding out
My place in this planet
Through all my dreams
And all the schemes
That Ive been trying
To manage
I gotta put it down
And focus
On the hurt
Of my baggage
And though I'm praying to my God
I still been feeling
In famished
I dont understand
The plan
Thats in the point
Of this damage
Like maybe
I've been off my pivot
And hes letting me have it
I pray to Jesus
That I feel a honest heal
Of this damage
But yet
I sit inside my sorrows
With my pain
Thats been handed
I been broken
Like I'm never even living
With bruises
So maybe God dont really Care
And hes just picking and choosing
Cuz if he really wanted me
To be avoiding depressed
Then I'd expect
That I'd be stronger
In this hard of a test
And I'd expect
That I'd be over all the Mental
Destruction
While I been living half a Decade
In depression and rubbish
Do I even really matter
In this life full of nothing
God I wonder
Cuz I'm hoping
You'll be telling me Something
When I ask for some assistance
They're confused in a Bunch
Other people tell me
I just aint
Doing enough
Even through all this Depression
I'm still living with love
Maybe this is all a test
And youre just making me Tough
Living on the edge
Depicting out the best
I'm dreaming in my bed
And I'm backing up out
The pest
A hunder thousand dollars
Aint worth it
If I'm a mess
I'm hoping for a change
In the minute
That I Impress
And now I'm

Living on the edge
Depicting out the best
Avoiding out the physical
Focusing on the heart
Theyre hoping that I'm Finished
Ive only
Been at the start
My open minded passion
Is keeping me out the dark
But yet I'm
Living on the edge
Depicting out the best
I'm dreaming in my bed
And I'm backing up out
The pest
A hunder thousand dollars
Aint worth it
If I'm a mess
I'm hoping for a change
In the minute
That I Impress
And now I'm
Living on the edge
Depicting out the best
Avoiding out the physical
Focusing on the heart
Theyre hoping that I'm Finished
Ive only
Been at the start
My open minded passion
Is keeping me out the dark
But yet I'm
Living on the edge
Depicting out the best
I'm dreaming in my bed
And I'm backing up out
The pest
A hunder thousand dollars
Aint worth it
If I'm a mess
I'm hoping for a change
In the minute
That I Impress
And now I'm
Living on the edge
Depicting out the best
Avoiding out the physical
Focusing on the heart
Theyre hoping that I'm finished
Ive only
Been at the start
My open minded passion
Is keeping me out the dark
But yet I'm
Living on the edge
Depicting out the best
Avoiding out the physical
Focusing on the heart
Theyre hoping that I'm Finished
Ive only
Been at the start
My open minded passion
Is keeping me out the dark
But yet I'm
Living on the edge
Depicting out the best
I'm dreaming in my bed
And I'm backing up out
The pest
A hunder thousand dollars
Aint worth it
If I'm a mess
I'm hoping for a change
In the minute
That I Impress
And now I'm
Living on the edge
Depicting out the best
Avoiding out the physical
Focusing on the heart
Theyre hoping that I'm Finished
Ive only
Been at the start
My open minded passion
Is keeping me out the dark
But yet I'm

Tryna put an end
To the
Generational curses
I been working
And I'm learning
Developing in my earning
In my service
I been hurting
But steady
I make it work
And in assurance
I have heard
That I gotta be on alert
Praying to my God
And they tell me
That he is here with me
But clearly
I been missing
The message
That still is dear to me
I'm painting
Out this picture
Of poetry
So you know to see
The struggle I been facing
And lacking
Inside my focusing
Wondering
If I should be claiming
This
Christianity
Cuz maybe I'm delusional
Sticking inside a
Fantasy
Lately I believe in you
Less than I ever have Before
Cuz even when I did
It was only because I can't Ignore
My saddened core
God I'm not using you
For a open door
But truthfully I'm Wondering
What are you really hoping for
What do you expect from a Brother
Thats holding open soars
And falling on his face
Everyday
That hes gotta open doors
Honestly
I question
If I'm really your child
And through this
Struggle in my heart
We haven't talked
For awhile
And I've been living
On the edge
Maybe this is all a dream
And I'm just facing the buzz
Maybe this is all my fault
and I'm just
Taking too much
Maybe I'm just really Paranoid
And lacking in trust
Maybe I'm just really hateful
In this life full of rough
Maybe I'm just overthinking
And my mind
Is my cuffs
I been praying that I make It
Through this path
While I'm patient and Everyday
I gotta wait
Until the timing is
Fated
Even through all of my struggle
Ill be making it
Stated
Ill be okay
And though I'm breaking
Ill be fighting with Satan

And so I'm
Living on the edge
Depicting out the best
I'm dreaming in my bed
And I'm backing up out
The pest
A hunder thousand dollars
Aint worth it
If I'm a mess
I'm hoping for a change
In the minute
That I Impress
Living on the edge
Depicting out the best
Avoiding out the physical
Focusing on the heart
Theyre hoping that I'm Finished
Ive only
Been at the start
My open minded passion
Is keeping me out the dark
But yet I'm
Living on the edge
Depicting out the best
I'm dreaming in my bed
And I'm backing up out
The pest
A hunder thousand dollars
Aint worth it
If I'm a mess
I'm hoping for a change
In the minute
That I Impress
And now I'm
Living on the edge
Depicting out the best
Avoiding out the physical
Focusing on the heart
Theyre hoping that I'm Finished
Ive only
Been at the start
My open minded passion
Is keeping me out the dark
But yet I'm
Living on the edge
Depicting out the best
I'm dreaming in my bed
And I'm backing up out
The pest
A hunder thousand dollars
Aint worth it
If I'm a mess
I'm hoping for a change
In the minute
That I Impress
Living on the edge
Depicting out the best
Avoiding out the physical
Focusing on the heart
Theyre hoping that I'm Finished
Ive only
Been at the start
My open minded passion
Is keeping me out the dark
But yet I'm
Living on the edge
Depicting out the best
I'm dreaming in my bed
And I'm backing up out
The pest
A hunder thousand dollars
Aint worth it
If I'm a mess
I'm hoping for a change
In the minute
That I Impress
And now I'm
Living on the edge
Depicting out the best
Avoiding out the physical
Focusing on the heart
Theyre hoping that I'm Finished
Ive only
Been at the start
My open minded passion
Is keeping me out the dark
But yet I'm