Lately I've been waking out of dreams at night
To see with my eyes
Hoping for a map
Looking for a place to hide
I'm afraid of change I just know it
I already know, I already know
And I'm feeling ashamed to say it
I'm dwelling on it, I obsess about it
Another episode I'm not enough for you
You know that its true, you know that it's true
Then tell me why are your hands so cold
You don't have to
Explain to me how you got so afraid
Don't you think about the bed sheets
You haven't put on
The piles of clothes you could fold that you keep stepping on
Don't you think about being alone
In the house when everyone is gone you're
Just floating down the gutter
While your stomach twists and flutters
Your brain's a fog 'cuz you like it that way
Will anyone be able to put up with me
After I become this way
Empty head with nothing to say
When you know nothing is wrong, but
Your mind already told you
To believe in what it has to say
So you think about the person
You love and how they will live after you die
Know it sounds pathetic
But what about me isn't pathetic
I just get so sad because I
Want to be there for the people I love
So they can live happy lives
And not have to deal with the mess of me