It's not a thing I would say straight
I crack jokes just to leave the gates
But
I look back at that place today
And wonder how the hell I ended up this way
I feel like I can't complain

Oo ooo
Oo ooo

And there are times when I think again
About the way I wish shit would have been
I remember not knowing any better then
Thinking, 'this is life, gotta live with it'

But it's a chore just to feel again
Feeling sickly different from my few friends
Wishing I could take part of their comforted bliss
Hoping I can be something more than just this

Just this

Oo ooo
Oo ooo

How could this be
How could this be

There's not a day that does not lead me on
A storm from the past waiting on my mind to calm

And truth is, there's a lot of fucked things that you've said
I bet you wish I was not as smart as I am
But I see it in her and I saw it in him
I try hard to forget but it drives me mad

That again and again I've been spent on lament
Throwing my problems out like I had none to tend
There's no talking to your cement
And I have an extra step with others ahead

Oo ooo
Oo ooo

How could this be
How could this be

I take it pain by pain
Always rain on my face but
A tough bitch to take
And gonna be the flame that takes the chains

Now you can be
On your own without me
Without me