I took to myself like most take to the sea
Nervous and just a little bit shaky on my feet
And I know my hesitations don't benefit me
But all my anxious tics are part of my identity

And normal's only better if it works for you
And I don't think that's who I wanna be
Maybe you're right, I don't know who I am
But that should only matter to me

I never thought I'd find a day I didn't give a damn
But I've been too reliant on invisible hands
As they pushed me along, I wrote a song
So maybe I could feel free
Free

Sometimes livings a prison
I think I've been forgiven by everybody but myself
The hypocrite inside me is happy to baptize me
In a pool of memories full of all the times I've failed

And yes, I know it's not fair
I've been ripping out my hair over just what's okay

Breathe in, breathe out, repeat now
I think I've figured it out
But it's still not for me

I didn't think that it could get any worse
I think I'd rather you just put me in the hearse already

Leave me to die, leave me to live
It would be easier than trying to be perfect for you
Just leave me alone
Just leave me alone