The Name of My Trauma Starts with "J" is a song in English
Hi, Rae. How are you today?
I don't know...
Is that thing again? What would you say to him? Let. it. go.
I asked "can I count on you?", remember that day?
You said for me "sincerely, I don't know"
I knew that I couldn't stay in your way
Then my mind, said you can finnally let it go
Right there in the beggining you were awesome to me
Gave me everything I couldn't believe
But material gifts aren't love for me
I thought "I have a doubt with you, so I can't leave"
In the first year, was so problematic
I held you and gave you the support I was empatic
I started to feel things phsycosomatic
But when was me, you stood there, static
The name of my trauma starts with "J"
If you're the next, you have courage to stay,
I wish you a really good luck to stay in that way
But now I left that burden blow away
You betrayed me twice, it was a huge pain
But you said, "I'm having problems, I was out of me"
I believed, like some manipulation in my brain
But it was getting clear in my mind, then I could see
I got worse, couldn't smile anymore,
Depression took all over my soul
You stood in your stage , like before
You also took my energy like a ghoul
I tried to tell you about my condition
You turned to me and said "I don't understand"
Also I said about my drepression
You said "Help you? I think I can't"
And about helping me it was just a hug
You stood there just staring at the wall
You left me like I was in the dirt
But you never tried to help me at all
I felt him so far away from me, then I asked
"Do you still want it? We can talk and I won't stay in your way"
He said "I want it" but his phone showed me he wasn't into me anymore. He was lying and had no courage to say, coward!
I told about my insecurites to my "friend"
She listened and said everything is okay
Something said "she's not beside you" and in the end
You two were toghether, for the third time, a betray
Since we broke up, there was no trace
Didn't have the courage to talk about
Didn't have the courage to talk face-to-face
I just wanted it to end with, but you was out
The name of my trauma starts with "J"
If you're the next, you have courage to stay,
I wish you a really good luck to stay in that way
But now I left that burden blow away
Eu te perguntei, "posso contar com você?"
O que eu escutei foi "sinceramente eu não sei"
Foi ali que eu soube que não ia dar mais porque
Ali senti que o peso, para trás, eu deixei