Baby I love you forever, forever means always
I mean it, I meant it, I bent the rules crying
The feeling of dying
A pain in my chest with a hole in my heart
Man I wish I was lying
Is this even worth it?
The way I'm surviving , with no satisfaction
I'm losing my brain
Girl I wish I was dead
But I stay, with these blunts to the head
Fuck I want it to end
Said I'm a rapper, the fuck was I thinking?
I'm sittin' here bleeding, and barely breathing
While makin' this music, how stupid am I?
Thinking someone would sit here and listen to mine?
Like why am I twisted in time?
My mind is a prison but I did my time
So why am I trapped?
The feelings of failure
They keep me intact
The emotions I shouldn't unpack
This wasn't the plan, this isn't my brand
I'm usually rappin' bout drugs and some guns
But that's not in demand
The same basic shit every rapper can chant
I'm tryna be greater than great
A name that nobody can hate
You and I are just people, I mean
Aren't we all just the same? (Yeah)
Slowly going insane? (Yeah)
Like what am I doing?
I'm standin' here stranded
I need me a sign to get out this
I'm stuck in psychosis , I cannot ignore this
I need me some help, but nobody is hearing my screams
I'm feelin' so hopeless
Nigga pass me the lighter cause I need to smoke this
I'm chasing the high cause it's how I control this
I'm a wannabe artist
But you just don't get it
I'm risking my life , I endangered my future
My dumb little dreams, of being the greatest are slowly collapsing
And I'm stuck relapsing
It's harder to breathe
And my life is in shambles
I really don't want this
I wanna be normal, I wanna be human
Is it all really worth it?
It's ruined my brain, but that's just the game
And it's swallowed me whole, I can't exit the cage
I'm chugging the poison
I'm tired of downin' a bottle
I just wanna be sane, I just wanna be happy
My love isn't somethin to borrow
God damnit I'm tired of sorrow
My vision is blurry , my vision is narrow
And fuck Cupid's arrow
The love in my heart
Has been cast into nano
Maybe it's time to just give it all up
Cause nobody cares, yeah nobody cares
Baby I love you forever, forever means always
I mean it, I meant it, I bent the rules crying
The feeling of dying
A pain in my chest with a hole in my heart
Man I wish I was lying
Is this even worth it?
The way I'm surviving , with no satisfaction
I'm losing my brain
Girl I wish I was dead
But I stay, with these blunts to the head
Fuck I want it to end
Said I'm a rapper, the fuck was I thinking?
I'm sittin' here bleeding, and barely breathing
While makin' this music, how stupid am I?
Thinking someone would sit here and listen to mine?
Like why am I twisted in time?
My mind is a prison but I did my time
So why am I trapped?
The feelings of failure
They keep me intact
The emotions I shouldn't unpack