I don't need none of your pity
You don't want none of my pain
I just need somebody who could have listened
I just need somebody who understand
I've got a lot on my mind and tripping
I'm stuck in a cycle of selfish addiction
I have been blessed but my curse is I'm living
For less then my purpose
I'm working for nothing I'm worthless
Sipping on bourbon and scotch
Till I'm barely alive
I'm abandoning God
Feel like driving 100
While closing my eyes
Till I'm crossing the line
And my body is thrown to the side and I DIE
Better then living a lie
Better then living a lie
I'm surprised i still try in the morning
I wake up my body still soaring
From last nights endorphins
I'm covered in flesh
I want a holiday
I want some peace
You gave me grace
I deserve none of it
I gave you nothing but faith and belief
How could a king give a damn about me
How could I not put my faith in a god so amazing
I'm lazy deceitful a heat full of greed
Lust for the bodies of all that I see
Till my heart stop
Till the last breath I got
I'm proclaiming you my God
But I fall short
Then repent and I want more
I'm a man and I'm weak
And I'm sorry I cant keep a promise
I'm chasing the commas
I vomit these stupid melodics
While dreaming of profits
But scared to commit
Split between living for you I'm in sin
I remember waking up laughing
Now I’m only waking up in pain
I remember victim hood before it was a fashion
I remember when I didn’t worry bout a thing
I remember when it didn’t matter you were black
I remember when it didn’t matter you were white
I remember when we didn’t flatter all the chatty chatty chatter bout how color was the best way to define
I remember contact sports
Where you earned your award
Don’t remember any medals for the 4th placers
I remember bullied cuz I’m short
Did it suck hell yeah but it Made me tough
I bet y’all couldn’t take my luck
Cut my trust up in one night yelling keep your love
When I hop on a mic I don’t hold my tongue
Ima probably die by the words I sung
Singing Run little boy run run run run
I got the gun gun gun gun
I set the bar in the garrison
The shot rung through the air from this pair of lungs
You compare me to me I’m a terror son
The fairest one
Begun by the only son
The new shalom has come
To repair ones
Who death has long
Had his sight set upon
Since I believe Adam and Eve
Were deceived
By the serpent in the garden saying eat from the tree
And sleep truly is the cousin of death
why you think they pray for peace when they lay you to rest
I'm a mess I
Thank god for the Messiah
Who died for my sins gave me new life
I cry out for my heart full of hate why
I still live for myself blame it on pride
I don’t know why I do all the things you do
I don’t want to be like you
Maybe I lie to myself
Wake up in denial
Come to think of it that’s true
Wake up in a mood like
Ima roll the dice
I could minimize
All the Ill advice
End up penalize 25 to life
Spend another night this state of mind of mine
Hardly stressing man I might be fine