Sometimes I get in depressions and feel like I'll never be more than a villain
I spent my life on the defence till I became needlessly violent and mean
"Marvin be nicer"
The fuck do you mean?!
Back in the days I was a causing a scene
Think I wanted em to feel like me
I wanted to cause pain
Aimless anger with a genius brain
Weak emotionally
Ain't hoping for me
No relationships it's fuckin over for me
Had no empathy and no remorse
It was just me and my darkside
Narcissism took over my mind
A lot of my life I'd hide behind it
If I could rewind time I'd fuckin fight it but I can't so everyday I'm still reminded that I
Feel like I'm doing em' wrong
With every song
My confidence grows
I just move along
I try to be strong
But I hurt the ones that I love the most
Try to be better but my heart is closed
I can't love my people like I am supposed ta
Not you it's me
I cannot let go of it
Grandiose so I protect my emotions
Oh shit
Feel like I'm doing em' wrong
With every song
My confidence grows
I just move along
I try to be strong
But I hurt the ones that I love the most
Try to be better but my heart is closed
I can't love my people like I am supposed ta
Not you it's me
I cannot let go of it
Grandiose so I protect my emotions
Oh shit
Why do you have to treat people like that?
…Cause they hurt us
I act like the greatest thing ever but they've never known that I hate me the most
I brag and I boast and I back it up but never have enough shit to be happy with
My life was tragic and my toxic habit was making sure everyone else's was bad as it
"I just be like that it ain't nothing personal"
What I would tell em when I would be hurting em
Sometimes my grandeur just really ain't worth a shit
I am so sorry to people I hurt with it
Less' you deserve it but still that ain't worth it cause karmas been hitting me with all the turbulence
Try to repent, but some sins were too permanent
Promise to change, wonder if the shits working still
Still gotta darkside and sometimes I turn to him
No one else has me when I'm feelin hurtin
The pain that I feel was the muhfuckin birth of him
Feel like I'm doing em' wrong
With every song
My confidence grows
I just move along
I try to be strong
But I hurt the ones that I love the most
Try to be better but my heart is closed
I can't love my people like I am supposed ta
Not you it's me
I cannot let go of it
Grandiose so I protect my emotions
Oh shit
Feel like I'm doing em' wrong
With every song
My confidence grows
I just move along
I try to be strong
But I hurt the ones that I love the most
Try to be better but my heart is closed
I can't love my people like I am supposed ta
Not you it's me
I cannot let go of it
Grandiose so I protect my emotions
Oh shit