How long have you denied that burning desire?

Yeah
Staying up writing sixteens
'Cause I can't sleep, thinking 'bout the Sistine
I make it up for all the misreads
'Cause I can't sleep, thinking shit skipped me
Sometimes you can't see it's bigger than the shit seem
A mental stampede's a company to misery
Banshees huddled 'round a pick-me
A broken family'll crumble on your big dreams
The struggles of the missed king
Not knowing who to grapple when the ships sink
I can't act, what would sis think?
I'm bringing trouble, every castle get the Blitzkrieg
You know I battle with the wind's speed
Seeing double from the path and all the licks clean
So guess my hustle moving backwards with the quick schemes
Hope it touch you, hit you how it hit me
Subtle, but swiftly through your ripped seams
As much I love you, I know I gotta get free
It's what it come to, you know how resent bleed
Out your heart, until it leak empty
Lowkey from the start, I ain't see the end gleam
Just going with my cards, watch 'em harsh and turn to envy
Lifting up the guard, that's the reason my defence weak
Thought I was a star, I was tweaking, just a check fiend
With a scar, demons, and suppressed being, uh
And suppress being