You left like lightning, here then gone
I woke to wildfire in the dawn
A sign from someone else's God
(A warning sign of more to come)
And I sat Shiva on my own
Hoping the worst of it would go
Better to keep it soft and low
(How could I know?)
My heart beat a funeral march
To the slow and steady hum of replacement parts
Dearly departed, are we gathered here at all
(Where did you go?)
Do you listen, or pick up when I call
(How could I know?)
Is it wishful thinking, now and then
To hope your ghosts are tuning in
To watch the way I carry myself through this spin
Spiral down
Stick around
Listen now
I thought this would fade
Like everything does
The foam on the waves
The smoke in my lungs
But it's stuck in my clothes
It's under my skin
I'm holding it close
I'm letting it in
I will speak to someone
I will one day confess
How it's eating me up
To be stuck in this mess
I'm opening doors
I'm letting it breathe
I'm airing it out
I'm calling it grief
My heart beat a funeral march
To the slow and steady hum of replacement parts