I️ ain’t the first with this damn curse
My mind craves for bloodthirst
I️ wanna be better not worse man it hurts
Shut up I don't care how you think my mind works
These Images in my head fuels the pain
FUCK NO drugs ain't in my vein
I always talked about going insane
I should have know I would get hurt playin these games
Seems like everyone knows what's best for me
Seems like everyone is putting me through stressed
Seems like everyone is testing me
Fuck everyone for making me depressed
Try walking in on your girl having sex
Now you know why my mind is possessed
And get so fucked over with the side effects
So everyone is fucking suspects
Doctors say my mind is too complex
Approaching me with different fucking subjects
Until her car rolls over and wreaks
Been told life will be nice if you live it right
But that's not true it's been a fucking fight
So I started to hate and it was a delight
I bottle my depression inside ya
Tears when I rap and write ya
Rapping is a way I cry for help
I can't keep this in anymore I want to die
I always been lost in this evil lie
I'm not the monster that people imply
This place is dark and cold I need to be saved
Demons have took me over I've been enslaved
Seems like my tombstone been engraved
But there's roads that still have yet to be paved
But that's every humans determination
I try but I realized I can't with my frustration
Cause I forgot I'm not human I have no relation
But we don't need to have that conversation
I only stay true with my music it's my salvation
I'm not a copy of my generation
But truth be told were all weak against temptation