I know you probably didn't mean what you said
And every time you screamed at me in your Honda CRV it's cause you cared so god Damn much
But I think that I'm running out of excuses
Even my parents stopped holding back using words they don't usually use about you
But you were so convinced you're right
That blame belongs on both our sides
And you swore that I made you cry as much as you did to me
But I don't think you've got a clue
What it was like loving you
To feel yourself losing your mind
And knowing there's nothing you can do
Maybe you loved me deep down
And you hid it all under that thorny crown
But if I had to guess I'd say odds are one in a hundred thousand
Yeah the odds are you never cared about me
So go ahead and spare me the psych lecture baby
How all your fear manifests in immature anger and hatred
I took the classes too
But there's no amount of rationalization
To justify fucking my life up without reservation
With each conversation I learned to hate myself
So I don't think you've got a clue
What it was like loving you
To feel yourself losing your mind
And knowing there's nothing you can do
Maybe you loved me deep down
And you hid it all under that thorny crown
But if I had to guess I'd say odds are one in a hundred thousand
Yeah the odds are you never cared about me
So I always apologized
Made every single compromise
Hoping that you'd realize hurting me hurts you too
But I don't think you've got a clue