As of lately, I've been feeling so down I've been so fucked up, glad nobody else around
My head's been stuck in the clouds
That's not a feeling that I want right now
Kinda crazy that my heart turned sour
Thought I was brave,
I'm a motherfuckin' coward

Ghosts from the past always pop up on me
Fuckin' my head, I stay lonely
There's not a soul that knows me
Not even the old me
I get it, you told me
Yeah, I get it, can't hoe me
Heard the stories they OD
Who was there before me

(Tell me who was there)

I want to know
I wanna know who was there
Continuous thoughts, man I cannot prepare
Your his on mine, baby, I do not share
Thinking love is a crime, baby, take my ass to jail
No contact had me in hell

I can't feel my face, yeah
This is real shawty, I can never fake, yeah
I've been really tryna stay up out the way, yeah
Yeah, I'm just tryna stay safe, yeah
I got love for ya, but I can't save ya
No matter how bad I want you
I can't do it, but you know that I want to
Yeah, you know that I want to

You should know that I want to
You should know that I want to
So damn bad, girl, I want you
And it's really so sad you have no clue
You have no clue How bad I wanna make this work

You said you love me, but yeah, I said it first
Feelin' like that is a gift and a curse Fucked me up so bad, I ain't know what I was worth
Left me with no options, all I did was lurk
Thinkin' I should talk to god,
Or go to church

You call my phone, want me to come over
You sound sad, like you need a shoulder to cry on

The problem is I ain't fully sober
So my mind start racin',
it's thinkin' 'bout gettin' closure
And one thing just leads to another
We doin' more than talkin' to each other
Got so lost in the moment, forgot a damn rubber
I thought I was movin' on,
But somehow I still love her

I can't pull away
This emotional rollercoaster
Has been fuckin' up my brain
One day you love me, next day you don't
Are your feeling's even real, girl, I don't even know
When the shit get real, girl, you wanna go ghost

When you see me with a new girl, You blow up my phone

It don't matter what happens or who does what
Cause we can't seem to let go
Is this all for show?
What is goin' on
Emotional Ro-