You saw me crumble, saw me weak
I needed help, not therapy
A caring ear, familiar face
A helping hand, the safest space
Wishful thinking, we could say.
Posted online, you looked at me
As I was sobbing painfully
You took your phone to call your friends
Didn’t hold your tongue and from your end,
I was getting loud again

So if I had to find
The word for the colours of my sleepless nights
Rage’s the last one on my mind
Oh if I had to find
And put in perfect writing the feeling I’m repressing
Fury would be too thin

Because
I hate you
For questioning my sanity,
My cry for help, my dignity.
I hate you
For what you did and did not do

Please keep on crossing the street
Every time that you see me
Eyes on pavements or on phone
Just pretend that you’re alone
I’ll be the ghost in your haunted home
Talking badly about me
Has always been your currency
I wish it didn’t matter to me
But when you sigh comfortably
I do mind you next to me

So if I had to find
And put in perfect writing the feeling I’m repressing
Fury would be too thin
Oh if I had to find
The word for the colours of my sleepless nights
Rage’s the last one on my mind

Because
I hate you (I hate you)
For questioning my sanity,
My cry for help, my dignity.
I hate you (I hate you)
For what you did and did not do

Because
I hate you
For questioning my sanity,
My cry for help, my dignity.
I hate you
For what you did and did not do
I hate you (I hate you)
For questioning my sanity,
My cry for help, my dignity.
I hate you
For what you did and did not do