I spent a long time
Thinking bout if I should do this
I mean Goddamn
What would it do to the kids
But now im over it everyone is older now
What was inside is now gonna come out
Cause 10 years I lived through shit somehow
Everyday some thing new but I stayed with a clown
It started out out just trying to get you some help
Then you blamed your friends and had me doubting myself
Things grew even weirder when I took the second shift
I come home you in the bathroom surrounded by pills
I come home you on the kids swing with knife I remember still
I could see it happen before my eyes everything going downhill


I know I shouldn't say these things but I'm for real dying now
I cant let the shit roll on with out being said now
I don't wish no harm or bad on anyone for real
But I wish Karma would come so everyone gets theirs still


[verse 2]
You weren't the only one
But damn what's expected when that's what's given
A person breaks down
Nothings the same again
When you try to help and its thrown in your face every time
It was like no matter what I did it wasn't ever a good time
Then you met a guy who was 2000 miles away
You cut the emotions off and damn I did the same
You started throwing the kids in my face and said you were taking everything
The emotions beat me down it killed me and made me a little insane
I remember the last time I cried and begged you not to take the kids away
Between you and your mom the greed took away everything


I know I shouldn't say these things but I'm for real dying now
I cant let the shit roll on with out being said now
I don't wish no harm or bad on anyone for real
But I wish Karma would come so everyone gets theirs still



The years passed I trusted you again
I did it for the kids knowing it would bite me again
You used to call, get my advice on life and money
Asked once if I would adopt your kids its kinda funny
But I'm the bad guy who loves, wants the best for everyone
The past year takes the cake its hard for me to tell anyone
These lies are piling up its hard to see over this shit
Then I found out I had cancer that was some terrible shit
Everything has always been a lie to get things from me
Then I had surgery got out and realized you had stolen seventeen hundred from me
Apparently you cant even trust Christians these days
God might forgive you but you will never get that from me


..... from me


I don't wish no harm or bad on anyone for real
But I wish Karma would come so everyone gets theirs still