I can feel the weight of your body on an empty side of a bed
I swear I saw you in a hotel lobby but it was all in my head

c flicker in the distance would distract me from the pain
You light the candles to illuminate enough to make me stay

Kept me eyes on brutality
'Cause it felt too right when you were close to me
You painted a life like it was meant for us
But a long goodbye was all it was
It's a lot to ask a friend to live a lie
Just because you walked away
doesn't mean you didn't try

I hear they still think of her in Cambridge
Didn't like the parties but she's the big man on campus

We stood like less than lovers 'til my living room was empty
What worth am I to love if not even you would let me?

Kept me eyes on brutality
'Cause it felt too right when you were close to me
You kept your love as you took all mine
What a cruel mistake, what a sacred crime
It's a lot to ask a friend to live a lie
Just because you walked away
Doesn't mean you didn't try

She was a portrait of my desire
I didn't know how colors bleed
I bury my hurt in apathy
Could I blame her for believing me?
I couldn't bare the silence
But I didn't want the truth
It took some time before I knew
To love you right is to forgive you

Maybe someday I'll walk through Cambridge
I'm older now so I think I understand it
c year ago it'd be another story
So we'll leave this one for your eyes only