You never checked for a pulse
To you I'm good as a ghost
The blood still rush in my veins
Must think I'm numb to the pain
Best I can do is just float
Better for you if I froze
But we don't want it the same
I can't be running from change
Put up with hate all my life
Treated that shit like advice
Didn't digest them as lies
'Till I heard something divine
Intervene with my animosity
Talking me up from my mental poverty
Always watching me
Told me constantly
You gonna be what the world don't wanna see

And honestly I feel like I been in the deep end for a minute now
They say it's tough to be alive, but I'm living and I'm swimming with the river now
Try to push me to the side, and it won't work
Wanna see me in the dirt, I won't go first
Try to push me to the side, and it won't work
Wanna see me in the dirt, I won't go first

You never checked for a pulse
To you I'm good as a ghost
The blood still rush in my veins
Must think I'm numb to the pain
Best I can do is just float
Better for you if I froze
But we don't want it the same
I can't be running from change
I'm too resilient
I'll fill up buildings
Instill some brilliance
In millions, so they fulfill the realest
Of what they're willing
To accomplish
And I may get lost in the process
I guess that's the cost when you're obsessed
Take away all the profits and objects
All so monotonous

And honestly I feel like I been in the deep end for a minute now
They say it's tough to be alive, but I'm living and I'm swimming with the river now
No more
Living in
The dark, the dark
No more
Living in
The dark, the dark
I know it's harder to try
When your existence is tied
Behind your shadow and light
Can never reach it in time
I know it's harder to try
When your existence is tied
Behind your shadow and light
Can never reach it in time
Try to push me to the side, and it won't work
Wanna see me in the dirt, I won't go first
Try to push me to the side, and it won't work
Wanna see me in the dirt, I won't go first