I
I don’t miss a thing
I wish that I did
I don’t really feel the way I used too
And I
I don’t wanna say
What I really think
Cause if I did I’d be alone my thoughts are dark
I’m trying to hide it
I’m trying to hide it
The tears in my eyes won’t leave me alone
I’m trying to hide it
I’m trying to hide it
I’m settling scores in my mind I’m alone
Alone
I remember trying everything
From being the best daughter to being everyone’s worst enemy
But it’s clear to see I’m speaking from a place that’s not the easiest to follow
But it’s hard though to say these words not face to face
I’m facing down a hollow grain of sand and as it falls to the ground
I land straight back to where I am and all that I’ve said becomes a part of your memory
Just temporary sorrows
It’ll be gone tomorrow
It’ll be gone tomorrow
I’ll be gone tomorrow
I don’t know what to say now
I feel like I’m shutting down
I hope you don’t notice my lack of attention my eyes are bloodshot red
Is this just how I feel now
Will I regret if it takes me down
I can feel the blood in my veins is slowing
The pain is showing now
I’m trying to hide it
I’m trying to hide it
The tears in my eyes won’t leave me alone
I’m trying to hide it
I’m trying to hide it
I’m settling scores in my mind I’m alone
Truth is I’m much better at breaking things than creating them
I said I needed space to breathe but I’m not done suffocating
And these pieces are holding on to the last string of hope but I need to go
Before you get too attached I’ll leave a note that says
I’ll be back when the time is right don’t cry for me
You can say you tried everything
Even in the darkest times you were there for me
Therapy
I’ll breathe my last breathe but tell my mom I’d never leave this way
Tell my mom I’d never leave this way
I’m sorry