Blade to my casket, I write to you now, to ask a simple thing
Who are you? What could've we been in another life
Where worlds cross and interconnect like past lives
All I ever did was pass the time, listening on as the current passes me by
Introspective, I guess, am I blessed for the test
You survived life, a fall, that must mean there's a chance
Fighter like bland, with the shank, you a dog
Where's the rest of it all
Talking nonsense, forget the fall
I had a dream, I was king on top of nine
As I looked at Michael, on top of Eiffel
Smoking that haze, looking up on the world I craved
Mirror, can't look myself in the mirror
Endless nights spent awake cause I fear her
You can never deal with the hate I bet ya
Cause the love comes in parade, I got enough on my plate
Introspective, But i love my weight, the baggage I carry
To reach an unknown, may the dimensions open up and swallow me whole
For the home you could go, but never see it, for he beat you, didn't he
No, what's the excuse? Fuck the world, that's on you
Dipped on everyone that cared, that's like you
Don't fight you, rather go homeless than defend your title
That's just like you, run away from it all
Fuck the rest, it was a fucking test
Now, you got a whole life to rest, battle with the best
For this, cycle, make you crazy, got you lazy
Sitting around, looking at the sky, wondering when life will pass you by
But you're still scared shitless
So why did you fuck up your image
That's just like you, no one ever really liked you
Put you in the cycle, rinse, burn off your prints
You're not real, fuck the world, that's the real
For the one I cant attain
Hear the sounds, it's all encompassing
Hear the arguments, it's in passing
The way to greet, the way to eat, hear before sleep
Is there another world where I can blink
Without moving my eyes at all, past time like the fall
You're at the end of the road, parting the fog, brain, fuck it all
Think of the wrong things, make me lonely, but am I really though
Think a little more, cause unlike others I have a bless
Need put life to the test, battle like I said with the best
Conquer the dungeon I fear, fuck fear, it's bravery
To look ahead full hearted, letter to my past self
Work harder, look to the future
Try today, forget about the pain
Need to put in effort to get play
Don't matter the stray, darkness is the works
Light is all, diamonds crushed to a pall
I see bells they ringing, I see myself grinning
Look across the aisle, I see death
Two steps back, it's a test
Find a new way, I digress
Help from the old me, JK I'll do the rest
OP for the test, wasting time while they take the crest
Need to find the fire, need to find the worth, purpose
Try to find it, music ain't working, I'll bite it
More time wasted, relapse again, put myself to work for them
History keeps repeating, where's the source
It's the thirst, straight from the mouth, the belly that feeds
The one that shows greed, sights to see
Personally I've been feeling well, but when does the well drain
When's the end of my day? Letter to my past self
Fuck you, letter to the present me
Fuck you, letter to the future me
Im sorry