I'm a loner
That doesn't mean the world is on my shoulders
Yes sometimes I cut and run
My cup still runneth over
I'm just being me
Not being mean
It's just a means of pressing pause on my controller
cs I get older
I find that different people want different things from me
cnd that not everybody laughs at a topic that I think's funny
If you really want a piece of me
Know I'm going to say my piece
If you're not pleased
Then it's peace honey
I'm not saying I don't get lonely
If I did I'd be a big phony
But those of y'all that know me
Know what's absolutely crucial in my mind
Is making sure I'm being useful with the time when it moves slowly
When it's easier to say it than to do
It makes me think should I have stayed with you?
Deep down I know the truth
That any move to call you up to call a truce would just be tightening the noose and simply biting off way more than I can chew
cnd other things for which I am not in the mood
For some folks getting married is the move
For us the point was moot
I much prefer just ending the pretending and extending the not anything to lose
Because I was being aloof
I think back to before we needed lube
Just being honest I'm not being lewd
I know I made a promise
But I really nearly started to get the feeling that just being honest I was being rude
Which won't do
I can't bare it
The nightmare of the dream come true
It hurts so much to think you're probably crying because I don't want you anymore
But I had no idea how much I wasn't ready for
cnd I was already torn
Between the good me and the bad me
Regardless you'd have me
Gladly,
That's the reason why I'm done with us
Because I'm a mess and being obsessed is not what's best for either one of us
I know that I'm deranged
I know I have a problem but I promise I will change
I promise to myself
I promise to God
I swear that I'm not lying I am trying all the time
I am trying so hard
I'm mindful as I clear away debris
That I owe you a lot
My heart was rock
My heart was locked
You were the key,
I'm wiser than I was
and I apologize that you won't be around to see