Smoking up like every single day
My friends and family really Scared for me
But I could give fuck bout what Y'all say
You'll never know my pain
I'm smoking up like every single Day
My friends and family really Scared for me
And yes I know it's killing me
But I'm already dying anyway
Real one's is dying
An the fakes ones just living
I don't really get how we all
Keep on going hiding beneath All
Weed and the substance abuse
Instagram filters and netflix reviews
Pretending is seemingly easy to You
But I'm over hiding the shit i been thru
Speaking won't hurt you
Nor Will break you
I'm fending i think ima break on A track
My hearts been on Ice
Broken to pieces, hurt till my Core
I just lay in the darkness
Couldn’t tell all the people Around me
That shit i been going through
My mind was astounding
So I thought I could take it
I don't really know how to move On
I think that this pain in my heart
Keeps on growing and i know
Eventually all my nigga's will Bury me
Don't really get how to put that
Shit gently
I been awake, thinking my Problems
And issues away
Been feeling this pain in heart
Don’t really know
How to share all these feelings
Yea Really it hurts
How can I put
All the feelings in another being
In the shell that I’m in
Share these feelings
No I wouldn’t
Not even with the worst of Enemies
Been through shit that I hate Talking bout
My fam spit when I really really
Couldn’t really take that shit
Now I’m out here living this shit
Everyday
Telling the people around me
That I am okay
When you truth be told
I feel like breaking apart
Being stuck in room
I feel like I’m losing my mind
I’m losing all touch
Connection with people
No longer a rush
Seeeing that I’m an introvert Now
Can no longer speak
I’m feeling so weak
Don’t know what’s a peak
Don’t tell me to preach
keeping away from people
Shared my feelings
I hope that this brought
You closer.
Now I’m taking over the feelings
And over the pain
Smoking up like every single day
My friends and family really Scared for me
But I could give fuck bout what Y'all say
You'll never know my pain
I'm smoking up like every single Day
My friends and family really Scared for me
And yes I know it's killing me
But I'm already dying anyway