Yeah
Everyone around me just complaining or hating
My day is built up of just so much frustration that I'm taking
Got temptation to go back, affiliating, drug-relating
What I'm saying is that the road that I'm taking is getting so complicated
And if I never took a pill, at will I probably still be picking daffodils
And then I wouldn't still be waking up with these outstanding bills
Or running for the hills, it's under one condition
And I'm sorry if it's rough, but that's the way that I be living
Like when catching a breath was my only mission
They were wishing I was missing the time that I nearly overdosed
Inside the kitchen, didn't listen when they said take two
But then I overdid it, didn't listen when they say take two
But didn't even take my medication for ages
I guess that's something that the doctor's been saying
That it would make me insane
I didn't even really remember my name
With my body in pain like society, it will never be the same
I'm in the rain, I'm crying down on my knees
And I'm praying, now please, I need to find better releases
In pieces, all that I ever needed was reasons to live
But now I can't even see them, I'm grieving
It's like I'm in a prison and I can't get released
I'm surrounded by fleas, they be trying to live in my sheets
Why you talking to me, looking for some kind of receipt
I always could never sleep, I'd be up sniffing my keys
And that's my retrospect, wasting all this time was just a big regret
Disrespect, I will not give up until there's nothing left
Nothing left, first step is never hardest, it's the second step
Second step, I'll be just doing this regardless till I'm late to rest
And if I'm being honest, I don't even wanna tell you this
But every time you lie to me, I've seen all of this selfishness
Thinking to myself, I wish I could just stop pretending
This is something that it's not, you're just insulting my intelligence
And I drank away depression every day
Just to get you out my brain, but it didn't feel the same
Smoking so much cigarettes, at least 20 a day
If I didn't have a smoke, then I just wouldn't be okay
Interrupt my sentence every second, no delay
You would second guess suggestions in the words I had to say
Guess it's nothing to you, guess it's only something you can break
Guess it's nothing to you, guess it's only something in the way
Talking to the wall, so they said I needed therapy
I'm talking to a therapist who's probably needing therapy
Letting what's above of me distract what is in front of me
Was born, they taking care of me, get old, they taking care of me
Can't forget the things that you would always come and say to me
I'd always see you smiling, never taught to share the energy
If I understood, I would've stopped acting so selfishly
I guess it went with time, life I mixed up and we went separately
You get mad at me, that's your strategy
To make it out like I'm the one that's causing tragedy
I remember in the school, they used to laugh at me
Then comment on my status, saying that I got the talent, see
I don't make apologies, the only time I do is when I am the liability
My responsibility is to walk around with honesty, to make my mother proud of me
I'm thinking all of this and I can't break it down, my mental state is breaking
Now I've made all my decisions, never asked them how
Say I'm just complaining and straining and it's frustrating
I don't care what you are saying, there's someone out there relating, yeah its Rob
When he actually told his story
It was very funny, we were around the sitting room, we were having a chat
And Rob, an unbelievable guy, he smile lights up the room
But he wanted to get his message out
And how he did it was through a song of things that had happened him growing up
The only way he could get it out was through that song
And when I listened to it, oh my god
I remember coming out of it, how I felt, the emotion was unreal