Im afraid of being everything you thought id be and
when you look back at me i wish i knew the things youd see
and all i remember
out of december i came drinking more than i ever had
reason being you took me there

and i,
i dont feel
like i used to
i could use you
but it all come down when it ain't no reason left

and i know that im not perfect
but id argue who deserves it
i wasnt trying
i wasnt trying to fuck us up
and what do i say
to you

id rather not fight today
drinking my life away
staying up way too late
im telling you that you cant stay
but you dont wanna listen to the person that i was last week
im tryna show you how it end but you aint tryna see
cause we both 'gon burn

and i dont mind
cause i dont see you anymore
im killing time behind my door
i know i hurt myself in the worst way
hurt myself in the worst way
again